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10月28日 Still not on FaceBook!Finally I've managed to bring myself to updating my blog again... after abandoning it for over a year! A whole year! can you believe that?!!
Anyway, I'm back now, and rather than following the trend and start facebooking and myspacing, I'd rather come back here, where I know what I'm doing. Call me an old fart if you will, but I just really can't be bothered with all the new networks. I heard a lot of stuff from my friends about how they spend so much time on there replying messages, sending 'flowers', 'poking' each other and stuff like that. It just sounds so much work and so much commitment. I'm way too busy with everything else to be bothered with things like that, so apologies to those who have sent me invitations. You guys have fun! :) Quick update about myself: I have finally had enough of working for other people and resigned from my job in advertising in May this year, and set up my own media and creative agency with my brother Jake, called Xcetra Media Solutions. check it out! www.xcetramedia.com. I never felt so liberated in my life! I used to think, why didn't I do it earlier?! then I realised that the timing couldn't have been more perfect. I simply wouldn't have had the financial foundation and the client base to go solo before then. The business is going really well so far (touch wood) and we are working really hard to grow it. Work is really taking pretty much all my time at the moment so I don't see my friends as often as I should (sorry...) but I've started to make more efforts again. At the end of the day, my career and business is important to me, but I don't wanna end up like one of those who live to work... That's it for now, here are some photos taken recently on my holidays in Paris and Milan this year. please get back in touch! 
ironic, isn't it! 
a tiny ancient square near the Duomo in Milan 
at the temple where Da Vinci's Last Supper is located. Ok, I know, I don't really know why I always have my arms crossed when taking photos either. It must be some kind of mental block or something... 8月28日 I'm Back!!!Can't believe it's been almost 3 months since last time I updated my blog! I started my new job in July and I have to say it's been pretty stressful. Things are calming down a bit now and I have finally been able to take some time off. Yep, I have taken this week off. The plan is simple - doing absolutely nothing whatsoever, just chilling out and having a long deserved break.  Getting a little bit fed up with the print advertising industry to be honest.  It's so transparent and cut-throat it's making me sick sometimes. However, for now, I have to stick to it and do the best I can before I've saved enough money to go into property development!
Anyway, gotta dash. It's a nice day today and we are going out for a walk along the canal. I'll update again soon, promise! Some latest pictures...   6月3日 I've got a new job!!
5月24日 Two Dozen White Roses The waiting is over... I have finally found what I have always been looking for. So
many times I had thought to myself, maybe I should wake up and give up,
maybe it's never gonna happen, maybe I should change the way I am, or
maybe my expectations are simply impossible... I waited and waited, for
the day when all my efforts are paid off, and I can say to myself, you
know what, good for you for hanging in there, there will be no more
heart breaking from now, and go have a wonderful life! That day has come, and my life is now complete... Thank
you for giving me the confidence to be who I truly am; thank you for
filling my life with sweet surprises and enormous love; thank you for
your never failing belief in me; thank you for bringing smile to my
face; and thank you for the beautiful two dozen white roses that
brought tears to my eyes... The word 'love' will never be over-used with us, cos that's all I have for you...  5月11日 Back from Beijing!Sorry for such a long absence!
4月17日 Easter Weekend in LondonThanks to Mel and her warm hospitality, Jake, Jianna and I have just spent the lovely Easter weekend in London. We had so much fun, and I can't believe how much we laughed during the last few days.  Anyway, Mel, thanks again! You are a  Now enjoy the pix!  Yeah, I guess I could easily move to London to live. I am a city boy deep at heart...  Me and Jianna  Mel, Jianna and me  Ok, now that is just silly...  Saturday night, at Cafe de Paris. How many shots did we have exactly?? I lost count...  三人行， 必有我师！  Ok, for those of you who don't know yet, I have got a twin brother. Can you tell the difference? :)  四人帮！And we all know 哪位更像江青！！！ hahahahahaha...... 4月11日 I think I'm drugged...You turned up with your cute school bag, looking so nervous.
 The chicken went all dry and hard cos it was left in the oven too long...
 Sorry about the decaf coffee which failed to wake you up,
 and sorry about CNN - I am just simply too sophisticated...
 Can't believe I did YOU KNOW WHAT. All my boundaries were down and all my worries were gone...
 I think I must have been drugged...
I think I must have been drugged........
  4月5日 当幻想遭遇现实...幻想在幸福中出生,
度过了他美好的童年.
年轻的他美丽又纯洁,
滚烫的心中充满了对未来的憧憬.
现实从小就习惯了一意孤行,
霸道的不把任何感情看在眼里,
因为他的无情和残酷,
人们经常忽视了他的存在.
至少, 是不想承认他的存在...
那天, 当幻想遭遇现实,
他的那颗美丽纯洁的心被现实无情的打碎了,
一同破灭的还有那些美好的憧憬.
他真的是第一次这么伤心的流泪.
现实无奈的看着,
但他却也只能无奈的看着...
走投无路的幻想
一个人来到海边
绝望的他, 向海的深处走去......
人们在幻想中相逢, 相知, 相爱,
却在现实中相害, 相别, 相思.
可谁能真正一生相守?
美丽的幻想支撑着我度过没有你的每一天,
直到残酷的现实将我们拆散,
用刺耳的声音告诉我一切都是虚幻...
我不甘心又能怎样?
生活还要一天天的继续下去.
幻想走了以后,
留下的只有一颗仍然牵挂你, 爱你的心......
4月2日 Somewhere over the rainbow...感谢昨天的太阳雨， 透过客厅的窗子，我又见到了久违的彩虹。 而且这次是一条完完整整的彩虹。     Somewhere over the rainbow Way up high, There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby. Somewhere over the rainbow Skies are blue, And the dreams that you dare to dream Really do come true... 3月29日 The sweetest thing......It's gotta be the sweetest thing I have seen for a very long time...
My sister Dee, and her boyfriend Danny...
Just look at this cute couple!
You know... I was there when they first met! Danny thought Dee and I were a couple, which is hardly surprising, providing how cute we always look together. HAHA!
I am so happy for you, my baby sis...
And to Danny, well, you are one lucky mother *$%~! :P
3月16日 法拉盛（Flushing) – 大西洋西岸建立起的新共和国     终于回到了家。 在纽约的一个星期里给我留下印象最深刻的应该是皇后区的法拉盛。这个在过去的十年中迅速兴起的记纽约唐人街之后另一个大面积华人社区让我感受到了一种回到家的心情。来自中国内陆，福建和台湾的华人千里迢迢来到美国，在地球的这一边建立起了一个新的共和国。  在 Flushing Mall 的小吃街里吃饭就像是在北京某个商城顶层的美食街一样。中文的菜谱，用中文点菜，中文的收据，就连用餐的也都大多是中国人。走出小吃街，所有的店铺都是中 国人开的，出售中国产品，接待中国顾客。整个法拉盛区应有尽有，是个非常健全的新社区。这给我的感触很深。 其实美国所谓的自由与民主以及‘美国精神’更多体现在其移民群体当中。美国的联邦体制加之其作为传统移民国家的历史给了从全世界各地移民到美国的人们一种 无法言表的自由感和权利去完全的表达自己，延续并发扬自己的文化和习俗。和英国相比，由于英国的君主立宪制和皇室家族的仍然存在使得无论是几十年，几百年 前来到英国的老移民还是像我一样的新移民都对发扬本族文化和中华传统的欲望并不是如此强烈。比如就像一个家庭，如果所有家庭成员都拥有一样的和平等的权利 与地位，那么我相信每一个人都会拥有很强烈的欲望去表现自己，创造一个属于自己的天地，但是如果这个家庭有个家长（就像是英国女王），整个家的性格和生活 习惯都由家长定型，那么家庭成员们就会少了对自我价值的重视和发扬自己的欲望。这是很可悲的，但是又是不可避免的。总之，我想，在纽约生活的华人们应该不 会太想家吧…… New York, 我还会再来看你的。 3月6日 今天很想你......  一定都会有遮敛 你出现我面前 不知收敛一直流泪 那一段时间 发生的从前 都没沉淀 还是初次太想念。 代替你在我身边 我习惯的黑夜 渐渐的再也不埋怨 那一段时间 我们算有缘 去怀念 感情美好的一面 都是宝贵的昨天... 当我不在你身边 答应我用心去飞 生命若有新体验， 你别拒绝 当我不在你身边 寂寞若是让你累 回头看一下以前 也是安慰 当我不在你身边 答应我，快乐一点......   3月1日 Ordinary happinessThe never ending question of life: what makes us happy?
When asked what my goal in life is, I always answer "being happy" without hesitation. But when I'm left alone, I often ponder over what happiness pertains to. Great Career? Stable income? Beautiful family?
I used to think that I would be happy if I could be "successful". I wondered what it would be like to be Bill Gates or Sam Walton, having one's empire, having the power to decide thousands of people's lives. It's not the luxurious life style I longed for. I wanted to know how it felt to be sitting on top of the world. I wanted to know what the world would look like if I were to stand on the summit and look down. Where else would you go when you are so high up that you couldn't go higher? It's the state of mind I wanted to live through.
Recently, I've changed. I look at ordinary happy people and I yearn for ordinary happiness. Maybe I could open a little cafe with a flower shop adjacent to it. I'd be sitting in the cafe, making tea and coffee for people, become their friend, read a little and write a little. No more office politics, temptation of wealth or complication of vanity. What would that be like?
Ordinary happiness.  me:Ordinary happiness... Can not-so-ordinary people have ordinary happiness? Yet, is anyone not so ordinary?
Happiness should come from within. The reason why we remember all the happy moments in our lives is that we know and we can feel it when happiness is here. A cafe with a flowershop sounds so peaceful, so romantic... I remember when I was about 17, I had this vision of my future: I would be coming out of a not-so-fancy apartment, getting into a not-so-fancy car, driving in a not-so-fancy neighborhood in a not-so-fancy city, on my way to do a not-so-fancy job. I would be looking forward to the end of each day, because I would be driving my not-so-fancy car back to my not-so-fancy apartment, and spend a happy evening with that person that I truly fancy... Just like this, for the rest of my life... Then greed took over and reality hit. So now, I think....... let it be. Just let it be. 2月28日 Weather like this makes me wonder why I'm here...Everybody
knows that the weather in England is as unpredictable as a drunk uncle
at a wedding reception, and here is just an example... YES! It's been snowing here today in Southwest England. (The view through the window of my office)   And this is 2 minutes later... (no, I am not kidding...)  And the following pix have been taken especially for Ruby! my office  my desk   and my kids!! ^_^ (can you find my baby cow?)   Sorry Ruby... 没有猛男！哈！ 2月23日 感激的生活着今天想了很多。越来越相信‘命中注定’了。有些时候我们觉得老天对我们不公平，感到所有的路都被堵死了，但是其实老天在帮助我们，引着我们走上正路。 所以我们要感激的生活着，更要快乐的生活着。因为我们要有信心，相信‘命中注定’。 Today the company made an announcement. A dozen of people will be made redundant in the next two weeks due to the restructure of the entire advertising department. Half of that 12 people will come from the division that I used to work in before leaving the company for Beijing last August. However, because I am now working in a different division with even higher salary, I am safe. People who I used to work with, and who have always been friends with each other, are forced to fight for a limited number of new posts. Looking at this all happening around me, I don’t know what to think, except feeling extremely sad, but incredibly lucky… This time 6 months ago, I was going through hell (or at least I felt like I was), thinking there was no way out, asking the question that people always ask when they are hopeless – why? Why me? It seemed everything was going against me. Every way I went was a dead end and everything I did ended up a disaster. I didn’t know what was ahead of me at all. Everything was so grey… Little did I know, what I thought was the ‘worst scenario’ actually changed my life, saved my job and turned out to be the best decision I have ever made. If I didn’t have to go at the time, I would have been still working in the same division, and I would have also faced the redundancy. I was going through my archive today and saw what I wrote last August just before I left. I think I am even more convinced now that our lives are destined, and whoever up there is really looking out for us. When a door is shut, a window must be opened for you. When you think every direction leads to failure, it’s just fate, in its own humorous way, stopping you from making the wrong decisions. There is only one way for you to go, and your fate is trying to bring you to it. Sooner or later you will realise this, like I do now… So let’s be grateful, and let’s have faith in happiness. You can never cheat your fate then why don’t you just believe in it? 2月22日 Just some thoughts...Brokeback Mountain
是我几年来看过的很少的几部很好看的电影之一。小人物的生活往往是最让人感动的，而轰轰烈烈的爱情也往往是来自于最平平凡凡的人。Brokeback
Mountain 发生在1960 年代，所以我不得不感到生长在今天有多么幸运。1970年之前的英国，homosexuality
甚至是违法的，可是现在，gay couples
在英国可以结婚了，有和异性婚姻一样的权利和待遇。看来社会在慢慢学着适应自然，而我们也在慢慢学着接受自己。电影的最后，Ennis
把他的衬衣紧紧套在 Jack 的衬衣外面......
虽然他们这辈子不能在一起了，但是他们的爱情不会终止，他们两个人的心就会像他们的衬衣一样贴的那么近，Ennis 也就能永远的这么抱着
Jack...... 真爱啊，一个人一生能有几次啊......  _________________________________________________________________ 这两个星期好忙。天天要去London Office开会。和我的出版商商量可不可以就住在London一个星期，竟然说不允许，因为早上还要在Bath 的 HQ 开会！！bitch... 反正火车票钱是公司出！就是可怜自己一个人每天在火车上泡上3个小时！今天心情不错，连健身房都懒得去了。真是反常...... 不过心情还是不错。：） 很期待两个星期后去纽约的假期... I so deserve a break right now... 2月17日 Today is the first day of the rest of my life...今天是个很重要的日子。
今天是让人开心的日子。
今天我终于翻过了那最艰难的一页，新生活开始了... 2月14日 Chocolate | Roses | A Rainy Day | Me Without YouIt's raining again out there. It's Valentine's Evening. It shouldn't be a lonely one this year. And I shouldn't be spending it on my own, because I have you now... I got you some chocolate, but you are not here to share it with me I got you 10 roses, but you can't help me put them into the vase It's a rainy Valentine's Day, and here I am, sitting in front of the window, listening to the rain, missing you, and wishing you were here... 5059 Miles away from me, are you having a Happy Valentine's Day baby?  2月13日 又开始三点一线的生活了。今天是我回公司上班的第一天。感觉怪怪的。4个月在中国的 easy life, 加上回英国后一个月的调整修养，终于又回到了我熟悉的三点一线的生活：公司－ 健身房－ 家！突然觉得好像有点不习惯了。在家闷的要死，天天想着赶快回去上班，让自己再忙起来，生怕自己变的越来越懒。可是今天来到办公室却开始想念在家无忧无虑的日子。人真是永远在矛盾着。It's always a no-win situation! Well, at least now I'm making money, and trust me, I desperately need some of that right now! 2月7日 Everything happens for a reason.Everything happens for a reason. I keep telling myself that. Otherwise I would be just too exhausted to go on... Today hasn't particularly been a good day. After all I had to go through and such a long wait, yet another obstacle appears on my way to finally turning this page over and get to the next chapter in my life... But everything happens for a reason, and I am simply following the programme... 2月1日 Happy Birthday to ME!!Ok,
so I have been 25 for almost a hour now. And you know what? It's not as
bad as I thought it would be... Although it's not as sexy as I thought
it would be either. Yep, when I was a kid, I always thought that 25 was a really sexy age, but it turned out... not so much! Hey, age is just a number right? I became an adult ever since I got on that flight, then after that, age was never relevant anymore. So who needs some stupid numbers to remind me that time is ticking! But nonetheless, happy birthday to me! 1月31日 Should we just run away? Dinner at Poppy's place tonight. We do this in turns, me and the girls (Poppy and Becca). They all prefer to come to mine coz I have got the best apartment among us, but to be honest, I'd rather go to theirs so I don't have to do the washing up! :) This time, however, was different. Poppy is leaving. I can't believe she's finally decided to go to France. I'm really sad that she is leaving, and it won't be the same without her. Remember when she first had this idea of going to live in France for a year to sharpen up her French and enjoy the sunshire of continental Europe, I was there. And we decided to do it together, sharing a same apartment in downtown Paris. So when she told me that she was leaving last month I was quite shocked, and a little disappointed. I always wanted to learn another language. Just being able to speak English and Chinese starts to seem not so enough anymore. I think French would definitely be my choice. Besides, it would be fabulous to live in France (preferably Paris) for like a year or two, just like Carrie Bradshaw :) Poppy always have itchy feet, as she can't stay in one place for longer than 2 months. She's a travelholic. She'd jump on a plane to god knows where in Europe just for the weekend. Once, she got itchy feet again when she was out on the town. Drunk as a skunk, she somehow managed to wake up the next morning in a B&B in Paris! She's done pretty much the entire Europe, and she's been to the States, and even China. I was in Beijing when she got there, as a part of her Trans-Siberian trip, and we went to Shanghai together as well. It was such a fun week. We had never laughed so much. I always wonder why people are obsessed with traveling, to those places where no one knows who we are and what we have done, where people don't or can't judge us. It seems every time we are going through some shit, we just want to be somewhere else. Poppy's an intelligent young woman who wants to see a little bit more of this world that we are living in before settling down, but in most cases, I think we just want to get away from ourselves and what we have to face on a daily basis, at least for a while. I have to admit, that when I first got to the UK I was really excited, because it felt like I had been given a second chance, to forget the past and start from scratch. No one here knew who I was, no one cared to find out either. It almost felt like being reborn. I was a blank piece of paper again, on which I could write whatever I wanted to. I got a second chance to be me. Gotta be said, it was such a kick! So I guess I understand why people might get addicted to it, moving into a new environment when things aren't going right. But Earth is so tiny, one day we will run out of places to hide. In front of failure, missuccess and uncertainty, should we just run away? Surely it's much easier to just leave bad things behind and run, rather than trying to fix them. But is it the way we are supposed to deal with our lives? It's not Blue Peter where you don't have to worry about fucking things up coz you could always pull out something 'we made earlier'. It's reality, and reality has room for mistakes and guilts. My cousin Dee moved from Beijing to the States when she was only 15, then she moved several times within the States before moving back to Beijing almost a year ago. She then moved to Shanghai for her current job. Dee used to say to me that everytime she moved, it felt like a part of her had been left behind, so one day we'd lose it all. We'd be left empty inside by the end of the journey. After all, what we do make us who we are. I guess I will stop running now... I got ID'ed!! I got ID'ed at the supermarket today when I tried to buy a bottle of white wine!! The check-out girl thought I was 16 until I showed her my driving license. Thank god I had my license with me! With only 2 days before I become 25, I can only take this as a compliment. I thanked her and told her that it was the best birthday gift I've ever received, with this biggest grin on my face. 1月28日 春节快乐！Happy Chinese New Year!Wish I was home... I heard the fireworks ban in downtown Beijing has been lifted from this year? Awesome! 第7个没有鞭炮，没有年夜饭的春节。我们又长了一岁。  A man's castleChristopher
Hume: "The North American ideal, which in many ways is profoundly
anti-urban, is based not on the family, as we like to think, but on the
home. Home is a place, a man's castle, inviolate and separate from
what's around it. In Europe, on the other hand, a man's castle is his
city. It is living room, dining room, backyard and vehicle. The streets
are his hallways and the parks his garden."  |
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